Sometimes Sadness…
Many of my friends are sad right now. Some have lost someone they love. Some are overwhelmed with financial issues. Some have lost faith. Some have lost love. Some are scared about health issues. Some are missing friends and loved ones far away. Some feel far from home.
Grace describes how it feels when that deep well of sadness is tapped by her acupuncturist:
“Here?” He touches me lightly just where the bottom of my sternum dives down between my ribs. Holy. My face contorts to a sob like someone pulled shut the drawstring of a purse. “Ah,” he says softly. He pulls his hand away. “Take a breath.”
I take a breath. I talk to myself like I talk to the beginning yoga students in my Wednesday night class. Breath in: let the heart be lifted. The very tip of the needle feels like a flaming arrow hitting bullseye. I sob, out loud this time. He pulls back. Touches again with the pad of his fingertip. It feels so deep, this hole, a fontanelle above my heart.
Sometimes the sadness of others sucks me into a deep hole. Sometimes the sadness of others makes me shake my fist at God. Sometimes the sadness of others fills my heart. Sometimes the sadness of others makes me want to curl up in a ball. Sometimes the sadness of others spurs me to action.
Today, as I felt that deep sob that Grace described, I realized that the sadness of others is mingled with the sadness of my own, and I cannot tell the difference.
For you, I pray for peace. For you, I pray for comfort. For you, I pray for quiet. For you, I pray for strength. For me, I pray the same. Amen.
February 16th, 2009 at 8:04 pm
What a nice blessingmeditationprayer.
February 17th, 2009 at 7:14 am
Beautiful post, Lia.
February 17th, 2009 at 3:40 pm
How beautiful and touching, Lia. Thank you!
February 18th, 2009 at 6:01 am
Reminds me of the St. Francis prayer, beautiful.
Hey, I linked you to my blogroll under “Adult Industry Support” - is that okay?
xo,
Casey
February 18th, 2009 at 6:04 am
You are so right Lia, thanks for sharing this post.
The only way I know to get through sadness is this principle: “feel what you feel when you are feeling it.” In other words, instead of running from our pain, feel it fully and have close relationships around you that encourage such feeling brings healing to deep wounds.
Anyway, thanks for who you are to your ever growing congregation.
February 19th, 2009 at 2:56 pm
You made me feel alot less sad last week. And you are the only one who has acheived that in a VERY long time. Love to you my friend.
February 21st, 2009 at 11:42 am
This is your Yellow Personality. the world wouldn’t keep going round without you!